yesterday's f e e l i n g s

Thursday, August 31, 2006

i slept frm 9 to 9. omg.. felt so energetic now.LOL. but when i c bks... my enegry drained out immediately . esp molecular gentics. whole chunks of info to store in my brain. gota increase my brian de ram liao.LOL. if not ar... the whole system wil be veri lagged. LOL LOL...

omg.. my girl got 3 pressie for me??? wtf are those pressies?????? u make me xin yang yang noe~!! lol... i swear i will be the happiest girl on tt day man! jus 1 more week to tt happy day!! HAHA... girl lets go n buy those decorate stuff togther ok??? i wanna get sparklers~~ at nite we can play~~ haha... hui xiang tong nian ma~~ lol.. cool ar!!!!=D 2nd day of chalet we go theme park! or wild wild wet????cool ar!!!!

heh heh~~~~~ my dar dar!!!! lala.. lol..my ffjlb been complainin y every post got mention bout bf de~~ lol.. i like leh~~~ president fj canot huh HUH huh HUH... lol... SATURDAY!!!!! hahahah....

tml is teachers day!!! i miss MRS CHUA aka chua chua!!!! mr teo aka the ji dong teacher...miss darbyshire!!!! mr neo the king! mrs lim the teacher who confiscate my cleo n read it in her office!!! nb~~ LOL...mrs tan ..the teacher who noes im a gd girl... mrs sum!!!! ding lao shi oso??? PIPA !!!! GAN JIE ZHOU LE LA!!! GEN WO CHU QU LIAN QIN!!!! lol...

i miss those sec sch days.. those torturous practise n training for chi orchestra suddenli became the most memorable days of my sec sch life... the 3 days ''hell'' camp... the tecc practise..the ''infamous'' huang fei hong song... the most irritating ren yao~ LOL=x.. ouh ling ling the super nice n soft spoken teacher... cny performance.. earli morinn wake up go sch n prepare for performance.. sitting in the co rm eating breakfast while the others are singing national anthem in the carpark..LOL ..aWWw.. NOT FORGETTIN MY BELOVED 4e2.. THOSE BUNCH OF MONKEYS!!! i miss them damn much la!!!

enlarge n read it!
we onli found dis poen on the wall 1 yr later when we went back on teachers day... me n bernice were so touched !!!

i stil rmb the day when miss ang stand dere n teach us amaths.. the board was fille dup wif all the steps BUT no one noe wtf she teaching...LOL

I MISS THEM!!!=)

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

im left wif 1 paper on fri!! n damn it tt paper ends at freakin 4.30 lo.. cant dey let us tk tt paper in the mornin..so we wont waste our afternoon away ma.. na buay~ lol...

bdae chalet comin soon... i dun think my hubbers comin mani of them r having exams n workin.. awwww~ but im glad tt all my close frens are comin... bout 20 of them had confirmed their attendance... my parents were wrecking their brains whether to order buffet... but well.. im aniting .. the only impt matter is tt.. there mus be food!!! HAHA... BBQ FOOD!! =D

i nid more jobs... more pt jobs!!! btw next tues wil be check up again.. i dread it.. im afraid of the result... but i got dis feelin i might be goin for operation.. its a real bad feeling... im afraid...i got mixed up the date for check up n dar took off on the wrong day..haha.. but im alrite to go alone so jus dun worri boi...

im gona get sm pressie for dar! lol.. maybe get him a levis jeans ba..=) but tt gonna wait for few weeks more.. HAHAHA...

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

today phy paper.. its EITHER i pass sui sui by 1 or 2 marks... OR. suay suay i fail by 1 or 2 marks... LOL... so far i calculate hao hao is bout 50 or 51 marks.. but recentli i so suay.. HAIZ....

3 down 2 more to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=D

happy la.. tml netfund... fri molgen leh.. tml afternoon paper.. might be meetin dar for donner..his bkin out~ wee UU WeeT~ LOL.. off day frm thurs all the way til next mon nite bk in.. muaha.. but sori ar fri after paper i goin out wif my ali~~~

sat we r goin out!!! dar say go shoppin haha.. weeee~~~~ i duno he gettin wat bdae gift.. he say got 2.. omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but anitin he gif i wil like la..wahahah~~~ he say one of the pressie is veri big... n nid alot of effort..MmMM... onli givin it to me on the 16th... alrite then~~~ =D

if i got a remote control i wil rewind it to the day when i last saw my cousin..tell her how much i miss her... rewind back to english olvel tt day... n do hao hao tt paper... rewind back to that bloody day n slapped tt fucker!!! rewind back to the day i went shoppin at bkk n buy more..n tt day at shanghai n buy that super nice fur jacket..cb!!! so mani yrs liao i stil tink of tt jacket..LOL

but now i wanna fast forward to the day i grad..fast forward n c when i will die..fast forward to check out my husband.. fast forward to the nite when i gif birth.. n fast forward to c me in the peak of my career...HAHAHAH

if oni i haf.... damn tt show ... LOL

Monday, August 28, 2006

i think i can get 80 n above for my maths..bawahahahah...=x

so now 3 more paper to go. tml's the paper i dread most... OMG... PHYSICS~~~ fail again I DIE!!! TERRIBLY .... lol... pray hard lo... study hard..!!!

dis guy is damn fuckin hot!!! * slURp* Lol... girls lets rape him!!!! HAHAHAHAH

vincent ng!! seriously speakin.. i think he cant act well.. like wood like tt.. but u c his body damn fit la!!! n tt wins all already.. HAHA... dun talk dun move jus stand dere like tt can liao... so my fjjlb..is he consider 3rd class species like jh?? LOL... nono... his 2.5 class... better..cos he got body!!!!

Sunday, August 27, 2006

can i fast forward to xmas??? cos dar dar say.. xmas present wil be GUCCI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i woke up earli today for brunch over at tamp market wif my parents. duno how long nv wake up so earli n go eat wif them. guess wat? my parents bring me go buy toto n 4D... cos y? COS I WAKE UP EARLI N GO EAT WIF THEM?? nin na bei...LOL... den we buy lo.. LOL.. wah for tt few pieces of paper wif digits on it cost bout fuckin 60 bucks??? wah ex lo.... omg... but who noes i might be the next millionaire..HAHAHAH..

aunt msg me n ask ne wat bdae present i wan. mm..shes the best man.. olwaz get me wat i wan. come to think of it i got a super long wish list. maybe i will get her to replenish my make up since some of mine are ruunin out...

super long shoppin wish list... perhaps bdae wishlist??? HAHAHA.. but PLS... dun ever get me stuff frm perlinin silver.. tt damn shop! lol...

bobbi brown everything mascara... mac bronzer powder.. mac eye shadow palette... mac lush gloss.... oh man!!! aunty buy me dis pls! LOL.....

gtg .. MUG again.. cb~=x

i miss dar dar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he went for the 21 km half marathon today!! like so earli mornin wakke up go dere run!!! -.- n he complete within 3 hrs... WeeEee~~ i think my leg wil break if i ever do tt..HAHA...now his slpin like a dead log...-.- sorri dear i cant meet u dis few days thou its ur off... exam ma....... aniway SAT ALRITE!!!!! haha.. lets go shopping~~~~=) dar wanna get adidas bag~ haha.. he say buy 2 ..1 for me 1 for him.. oh man.. but i prefer gucci u noe..LOL

HAPPY 18TH BDAE XY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVESSS.....=)

confirmed ppl tt wil come my bdae!!!

--ali(stay over)
--xinxin(stay over?)
--weili (stay til late or over?) lol
--cindy(stay til late !)
--baobao(stay over)
--bird(stay over)
--bernice(another bird=x)
--xy
--sandy
--huixian
--zhi zhang..LOL
--david
--jian wei
--kenneth
--max
--rosabelle

so far dis few... yeah.. some not confirm.. i seriously hope my hubbers can come!!=) u noe... those chio ar chio ar steady la ppl... haha...love them lots man...

vodka.bacardi.vodka.bacardi.vodka.bacardi.vodka.bacardi.vodka.bacardi.vodka.

Saturday, August 26, 2006

today is the first date i went out wif my dar ever since we r togther! haha.. oh man.. his such a cutie... muahahah... love him to bits now..OMG!!!!.. yea... we went to watch click.. duno how mani fuckin yrs din watch movie liao.. the last one i caught was wif wei li.. FRAGILE... wahah.. tt fuckin show made me scream man.. ass.. click is nice.. touchin eh.. but i din cried .. lol..

felt a bit upset to go hm... AwwWwwWwW... how i wish time can jus stop dere man... i wan tt remote control!!!!! wahaha.. now i noe wat dar mean by ..will she love me in the mornin.. when he ask me the other time i duno wth he talkin bout.. n i jus go.. HUH? lol.. n den he said i wil noe it today.. o...so now i noe... forever n ever babe.. i was like.. eh..so familiar leh when i was watchin the movie ..den he smile..wahaha...

i found out smth again..he used to be a ice skate hockey player... wtf!! so cool!!!... can teach me ice skate le.. stil tell me he duno how to blade...asss.....

i miss him alreadiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..................... omg.............................. lol.....

dis is the v first time i woke up so earli on a sat mornini.. 9.30. for? study la~ ai seh.LOL cos im goin out in the evenin thus wake up earli to study. sometime it feels great to wake up earli on a sat mornin leh..wah i say dis leh lol.. faster go buy 4d today. HAHA. =x

cant deny i miss simon sometime but i noe his not gonna be back animore. holdin on for so long in exchange for tears n sadness... i duno if its worth it but all i noe is he would always stand tt special place in my heart tt no one could ever replace. yes im attached.. i do like my boi but not to the extent of love yet.. theres stil a long way to go.. i no im being unfair to him but well dis kinda situation i think my FJJlB noes best.. dun c them everytime crap n jiao wei dey do talk sense ..lol..my boi jolly well noe how i feel.. cos.. he is simon's best fren... his facing him everyday...mind u super best fren.. simon noes bout it... but wel all i can say is god play a veri big twist in fate... so did u guys OMG? haha..

i jus cant wait for dis exam shit to be over... i can go in party mood.. i wanna go dis yr halloween party~~~ i wanna go zouk! zouk! zouk! by then im 18 olreadi la~~~ WAHAHAH... official buyin of ciggies n alcohol!!! lol... no nid to c the smug face of 7-11 freak.. n no nid kan chiong when get in clubs! HAHAHAH....

Friday, August 25, 2006

first. i wanna bang my head against the wall. lol. cb la... i do wrong for my paper.fuck sial.. duno how mani marks gone but think can pass la. most of the qn we asked mr kwok tt day came out lo.. k watever

1 down 4 more to go!!

slept frm 1 til 4 plus. hohoho... energetic now.. gota mug again! MUG! ... no dinner for tonite again.. mum not hm~ for the 2nd or 3rd day ar? oh man~ my niece stil in kk hospital duno whencan discharge i haven go visit her yet.. im busy la... busy wif bf n exam.. HAHAHA...=x

i miss my boi~~ tml im gona meet him~~ wahahah... no i dun wanna go town.. so he wil be comin down tamp!!! lets go eat mutton soup!! wahaha.. loves loves... he stay so farrrrrrrrrrrrr...holland v lo...omg... move hse la!=X tt fella noe how to play the saxophone--correct spellin?? LOL.. omg.. haha.. he better go practise again wahaha... sophie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, August 24, 2006

studied in sch library. level 5 is a real cool place to study. quiet n nice. conducive environment. i like.

went relax wif my girl. sad thing is she lost her fone. think someone stole frm her back.. pickpocket! haiz. knn. when i called her fone tt fucker olreadi off the fone.

suay la.

tml med eln paper. study!

BDAE CHALET AT COASTA SAND PASIR RIS. ON 10 SEPT SUNDAY. START FRM 6=) EVERYONE READI ME BLOG ARE INVITED! HEH.. PLS TAG ME OR CALL ME TO CONFIRM IF U R COMIN WITHIN DIS WEEK K!!!=D

compulsory attendance... FJJLB!..cindy!!!huixin!!joreen!!bao bao...bird!! fiona come come! david...zhi yu..jianwei.... bernard...lol...

ppl like yorkie...naiba..ahben.. zhiwei..invited too=)

n those who recieve my sms pls come alrite.. heh heh...

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

studied in library.

biophy.

noisy studentS.

skl cherry break.

study til ki du lan.

simi lj.

study study jus keep studyin.

slept at 6.woke up at 8 plus.

cook dinner. eat. vomit. wash face. study.

-.-

niece hospitalised. haiz.

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

i studied til 5 am in the mornin. i barely had enuff slp man. but stil i met jing hao n jt at 10 in the mornin. haf our brunch n den headed off to find mr kwok. well i mus said im glad i did my papers u noe.. cos i got alot duno how to do n i clarified most of my doubts now.=) met dr raja for mol gen after tt but my brains was like total shut off . HAHA. got hm ard 4.. n i slept til 7.30.

OMG... im so tired noe... feelin much better after a sleep.

everyone was giving me dis OMG shit. even jt too. dey omg not because im attached... but because who my bf is.. but well me n boi reli think thru first b4 gettin together... since he dun mind wat his fren might say den y shld i? his in a worst situation den me since he got to face them everyday. so well well well.. HAHA... stop tt OMG LA... faggot! LOL...

got a nightmare ytd tt i woke up in cold sweat in the mornin.. u noe tt kind u wil sprung up in bed.. wah first time lo..LOL

heres some super outdated pic taken bout few mths ago? the day we went out to 85 for makan~~~ den ecp carpark H to catch monkey~~~ den after tt to ''pearl harbour'' at marina.. n den the next day i stil got maths quiz lo.. ya lo..tt day lo tt day..~~

wah weili... simi lj huh dis pic..simi lj u tell me...LOL

wahahahah....

waahahha~~ the LIM WEIS BROTHER!

MY NIECE!!!

SIMI LJ~~~ blogspot dun allow me post up pic liao~~SIMI LJ~~~!! LOL... til tml then~~~ TATA~~~

HAPPY 54 BIRDDAY TO MY LAO PEH!!!!

Monday, August 21, 2006

i had a nap frm bout 10 til 11.30. on the fone wif dar til bout 12 plus. read thru a lil n here i am bloggin. im supper awake now thanks to the nescafe. LOL. think wil mug til mornin. gonna meet jt at 10 in sch tml. finding mr kwok n dr raja to clarify doubts for med eln n mol gen. so i gotta do my papers n read thru my mol gen. tts alot work.

whine whine whine non stop. HAHa.so great to haf someone to whine at again. well.. dar told me bout it le. im exceptionally calm when i heard of it ..jus curious bout his rxn. aniway u guys mus be guessing whos my bf. think u wil get a shock. i dun think its a wrong choice.. theres no rite or wrong.. but well... im jus glad i gave my self a chance again. i had to thanks david for showin me tt email some time ago.. it reli did enlightened me. thanks.

seeing the cut fading away n slowly become a scar. u may think tt its stupid for me to self multilate but tt was once my way of findin my own existence. jus like him... fading away.. become my past...

gota mug alreadi...gambatte~

oyasumi nasai~

i got the chalet at pasir ris coasta sand(2 storey)! 10, 11, 12 sept. wil be celebratin on 10 (sun) thou my actual bdae is on 12. yup yup..buffet n bbq!!! further detail wil bew posted up later. frens wil be stayin over nite on the first nite..2nd nite wil be my family stayin. =) HEH HEH~~~ cant wait!!!!!!!

studied in sch wif xin today. i manage to finish my med eln. but i stil gota study again n memorise.=)

sad thing is.. i broke my white gold anklet. the one i had been wearing ever since im sec 3. nv once did i remove it frm my ankle. now tt its broken.. i felt tt a part of me had gone. serious. not exaggerating. thou mum din scold i stil felt real guilty. i hope it can be repaired la... hur hur...

dar woke me up today..LOL.. his damn funni la.... muahaha... so draggy lo..omg...

HAPPY 3RD BIRTHDAY TO CAITLIN TAN YING EN~~~~~~ muahahah... my cutie niece... tt lil bitch...lol lol

Sunday, August 20, 2006

on dis day, 20 aug 06, im attached.

decide to let go of the past, give both of us a chance.

=)

din studied much. i slept at 5am. -.- no 5.30 to be exact. no im not mugging. LOL.

went to pray jie. alot ppl..cos the temple holding ritual to pray for all the dead..super lot of ppl..fuckin hot.choose a wrong top to wear..super low cut..all those ah peh stare at my boobs as if its made of gold. FOOK. feelin read guilty for not viisting her for so long. felt like cryin when i was dere.. sayang her pic... flash back attack again. fook.

well got hm jus not long ago n im goin out soon. bro treating us for dinner.. celebrating dad n my niece bdae... dad on 22 niece on 21.. haha so togther la~ tml dey comin over for steamboat at my hse n cutting cake ceremony!! WeEEe~

finaly i finish writing notes for med eln..mol gen left a bit..but i haven touch a single page of biophy.. wah fuck fuck fuck...

now listening to lose my breathe by destiny child... got the sudden urge to club.. lean back..dip it low... get down to the dance floor... shake ya booty..~ hook tt baby boy~~ WwoOoOOt~ lol

FOTOS!!! yiSHUn Dam~~~

IN THE CAR~

FJJLB~ DIRECTOR'S BOARD ... attendance: ALL PRESENT~

when president... v.president... secretary are togther~ HAHA.. think secretary can promote to senior executive... cos shes been FJ-Ing recently..LOL

cindy n me~~~

ok~ lao niang goin out le wor~~ WOoot... ive got craving for SKL CHERRY!!!! woot~ someone stop me frm smokin pls!lol

Saturday, August 19, 2006

i cant wake up. thus din go visit sera. omg. so bad. tml dey goin in the late afternoon. i wil definitely go! lol. sorri ar jie.=x

slpt til 12 plus today. piggy~~ tired noe.. omg. i reli super like sophie!! shes my darling ! haha.. cute rite..shes my fren's doggie... i wanna keep a dog too!!but mama dun allow.. hur hur=(

study study~~ nth seems to get in my head.. fuck u man...

im having slight cough. thanks to the pepsi ytd. i had nv like pepsi but i din noe y i had it ytd.. damn jon..damn pizza hut..LOL..

taken in the library ytd...=) im so black! haha.. finaly i can comb my fringe to one side.. no more pokin my eyes~~ no nid clip ka-li-pok hair liao~ muahahhahaha

Friday, August 18, 2006

feelin cranky today. i duno how i tahan frm 9 til 5 plus wif bout 3 hrs of break in btw? HA. oh man.

the 2 can of coffee kept me awake . im lethargic mentally but hyper physically.
being doin stupid things.. funny faces in sch wif jt. ha. i think im crazy. hyper today. sing sing n sing~

met jon (my ex) for dinner. tt fella so mani yrs no change. jiao wei super alot.. make me luff non stop. HAHAHA. i slap him on his back so loud HAHA. or bi good. dinner at pizza hut. u noe the service there sux! haha.. but omg his damn funny la... haha relli lo..omg. fuckin full sial.. when round walkin n jiao wei.. n den we go play daytona! like so long nv play liao.. shit him.. i got 2nd! bloody asshole.....

aniway.. im feeling lot lot better=)

tml im wakin up earli. goin my ah ma's stall at marine parade for brunch n den off to the temple to pray my cousin.=)

studyin later~

6 sets of med eln test paper... 1 set of mol gen...4 sets of em3 past yr exam paper to do. T.T

CHIONG AR!!!!

sophie is so cute!!! shes onli 4 mths old... so cute rite!!! i wanna hug her so tight!!!!!! aWWwWWwWw

seems like alot ppl like the blue off shoulder top i got huh.. HAHA well go get it at

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under spreeholic section.

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Thursday, August 17, 2006

i jus quarrelled wif my mum. i cant stand her naggin. those qns are like interrogating me. naggings are unbearable. i got totally pissed off tt i stared at her n shut her wif dis sentence

U BETTER SHUT UP!

dun test my patience i said dis one last time.

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i dun understand y cant dey jus copied those notes or stuffs during lesson. fancy playin wif handfone games reading newspaper during those lesson n go gymin after tt. its not tt i wanna say or wat.. but im jus kinda pissed. i noe u guys wil be reading dis but pls ..exam round the corner.. pls put studies as ur priorty . dun come n say ai zai..can one.. dun be too proud of urself first...

finaly i handed up my proj. i din noe if its reli workin but well i dun wanna think bout it animore. jus study hard for sem exam first.

wasnt in real gd mood i duno y. been losing patience n got pissed off v easily. theres too much things for me to worry. i duno how to say it out here but well guess u guys wil nv noe. how i wish i haf a him to be here for me. jus when im fallin he would be able to catch me..assure me tt everithing gonna be alrite.. acc me walk thru all those obstacles ..AwWw..wont it be sweet...

im pissed off by certain stuffs which i dun wish to mention it animore.. im seriously pissed.. till the extent tt i dun gif a damn n simply brush it off wif a smile... u wil nv noe..

aniway i sinned again. online spree again.

bought dis blue off shoulder top ytd. 16 bucks.

bought dis tube top few days ago... 12 bucks...

retail therapy din haf much effect on me alreadi....

im walkin out frm the past... rejoice for me...

im gonna visit sera dis comin sat.. 7th moonth having some ritual over at the temple.... miss u jie.. i felt real bad for not visiting u for so long... sorry...

i look so black....

when can angel be back... my smile aint frm me animore.. i dun recognise my smile.. i lose the colour... im fading... slowly fading...

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

slept at 3 ytd. reach sch at 9. im tired. downin caffeine to keep me awake. -.-

finaly i do the 4th circuit again. redo it 4th time. tml checkin it. gona hand it alreadi. dun care if it works or not animore. reli sick of it. been stayin in the lab frm 12 til 3 plus jus to do it... had my lunch in the lab oso. jus so sian of it.

sometihing to rejoice. at least i did well for most of my quiz..i hoep my exam wil be like dis

netfund quiz-30/30 yup full marks.. no i nv cheat.lol
maths-29/30
biophy- 27/30
netfund lab - 10/15 i had the lab today... i tot i had screw it. HAHA

went to relax for awhile wif my girl after projecting. im seriously pissed wif the smokin area thingy. starbuck shld reli rename as starFUCK. like wtf? so mani smokers n yet tables for smoker are so pathetic. i sat down n ask if tts the smoker area n she jolly well said yes. few mins later she came n told me its not? like wtf? glad tt she got me a place if not im goin to screw her... same goes to coffee bean.. now even our fav hang out..shilin n sweet talk is dominated by non smoker... FUCK U.. spare some tot for the smokers.. u guys can jolly well enjoy all the aircon in enclosed area n now fuckin wanna occupy our smoker's area... asshole...

haven been feelin well n thus resulting in fiery temper. i found myself staring into space occasionally n soon my whole mind went blank. the next moment i gt easily pissed wif lil lil things n the next thing i noe im laughing like some crazy bitch again. like weather change. so beware.. haha.. neeway.. i wont blew my top at innocent ppl.. i try my best.. i noe u guys had been toleratin wif my temper... i am sorry..

wasnt feelin gd went im at starfuck jus now. i felt like cryin . but i told myself not to. i duno y. jus dis sudden emptiness in me.

well.. enuff of all dis emo shit. here some pics i took tt dat wif shar n terre. cranky us. HAHA

omg... LOOK AT TERRE!!!! LOL....so chouuuuu....=X

mmmm...

loves loves=)

i onli manage to upload 3.... blogspot dun loves my pic..tts too bad..tata~

off to get some slp..wakin up later to mug...

i wanna thanks bong... zhong hui... the-guy-who-hurt-his-finger....n those who helps me wif my proj... thanks lot=)

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

i redo my project til 2 dis mornin. not enuff slp. been drinkin coffee to keep myself awake. my circuit not workin again. 3rd time. i gave up. jus hand in at least a pass.

tml havin netfund lab test. i hope i can do.

time's runnin out. no time for rev. haiz. exam next fri starting n i haven even start ani revision. panic.

got no mood now. =(

sometime i jus hope someone will be dere for me. to share the ups n downs... a form of support at least i noe when i fall there wil be someone reachin out for me.. im tired. i really am.

Monday, August 14, 2006

met hua lun at 9 to do soldering. i i had a hard time soldering the right leg drive. recheck everyting. am glad tt i understand watever the teacher taught during phy tutorial. end sch at 4 n again went back to check my circuit. guess wat? I CANT GET ANI SINE WAVE... stage 1 not even clear ..how can i detect heart beat using tt fuckin circuit??? wats the alternativE then? REDO!!!

fuckin REDO!!!! i am seriously pissed wif myself. DIS GONNA BE THE 3RD TIME OLREADI! if i stil cant get it im gona flunk my project! how cool huh!!!!!!!!! knnbccb!!!!

NO MOOD. PISSED OFF.PEK CHEK. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Sunday, August 13, 2006

right after i post my stuff bastian asked me out. and baby asked me out too. lol. like 2 person asked at same time. n since both of them wanna go army market to get their number 4 sewed we went togehter. bastian went ahead first since his meetin another fren dere while i met baby at cityhall tk a cabby dere. bastian was crappy haha.. we r quite chattable lol. i forgot the another fren name ...o i rmbered.. brian! lol.. yaya..cos he tattoo his name on his underarm.. all th while he cant speak properly cos he jus got his tongue pierced ytd..LOL.. like so ouch cos it swell n he cant eat properly..poor fella...

cabbed down to fep.. n bastian got a tattoo at johnny 2 thumb... 300 bucks for a hammer head shark.. like OUCH! LOL... he spend about 2 hr dere.. while we went shoppin ard.. nth caught my eye except for a bangle.. quite like it..vintage vintage kind..11 bucks..=) baby got a top frm domanchi .. nice man!!!! lol... headed off for dinner afterr tt at suki sushi... the last time i ate sushi as in this kind of sushi restaurant was when im pri 4? or pri 5? at heeren de sakae sushi.. TTS DAMN LONG AGO.. haha..

i saw vivian !! like so long din c her man~~~!!! haha... we started to crap n hug ard LOL.. like some siao eh... haha.. on the way back i saw SHARON!!!! my canadian!!! haha.. n fellow hubbers.. ppl liker terrence u noe.. his hair is damn WOW.. like kena blow by typhoon all style 1 side den another side like botak kind..HAHA WTF!! of cos la..we cam whore frm somerset to raffles den frm dere til my stop eunos..LOL... i miss them like hell...!!

simon saw the foto tt me n seng took at sentosa. think seng put it as his wallpaper. n guess wat? tt fella din recognise me in tt pic n he stil ask seng to intro me to him? LIKE WTF?? n seng say ok lo ok lo.. u tk a pic i send her.. -.- tts wat bastian told me.. ha how funny ar..

steamboat at marina south ytd. wif my family. we brought ren wine n me alone finished away half bottle of it.lol... loves loves... im becomin a drunkard. special craving for skl cherry ytd. but parents ard i cant get my chance to puff. last day of fireworks. din catch it.was a lil upset but well... til next yr then.hopefully by then there wil be a special someone watchin wif me hahahahha...

procrastinating...!!!! shits!i slept at 11 ytd. so early ar-random-

feel like goin out today but frens are all workin~~~ oh man~~~ tts so sian. wanna go fep..been a long time since i last went there probably can get my lenes there too.. feel like drinkin too.... ahhhhhhhhhhh......... -.-

i repeat again.. i hate ppl to sms n ask me wat am i doin.. who the fuck are u.. mus i report watever i do my whereasbout everytin to u.. who the hell r u to me... n if i dun reply dun fuckin sms me the same thing ..as if i would replied...duh.. plague

lifes been a fucked up... HA...

im stil wearing my chicken lil pyjama..haha.. lazy to bathe... ARRRR!!!!

today is baby's bdae~~~ HAPPY 21 BIRTHDAY MY DEAR~~~=)

sian sian sian... thinified me pls.. been eatin lots recently..omgomgomfg.

Saturday, August 12, 2006

i jus came hm frm swimmin wif xin. tamp swim complex had changed alot. a great alternative to tann other than sentosa. guess i will frequent dere.=) tannin was great.swimmin was cool.. well heard someone shouting my name.. tot my ear was playin trick.. n tadah~~ i saw jian wei lol... great bod ar..haha.. aniway me n xin headed for lunch at qi ji.. we were famished! im gettin darker.. like ah neh neh... but i like..haha

i hate ppl to force me meet up wif them. when i say no.. stop persuading me .it wil onli pissed me off.

wat else.. oo..gona go for dinner later wif my parents. mum treatin..to celebrate my dad's bdae in advance.=) jus the 3 of us.. heh. cool.

here are some pics of the sentosa trip on national day.=)

BOOOO

bleAhX~

angel on his back

BEACH BOI MAN~~

hAHa..SenG AR~~ SexY poSE LeH~ lol..

wasSSuP man LOL

i love dis pic =)

me n rena at seletar dam

i bought a top online ytd! lol.. i love it. gona jian feiS b4 i can wear..lol..pose up another time.. blogspot fails to upload it.. WTF... lol

exactly 1 moe mth to my bdae. counting down=)

bye

Friday, August 11, 2006

HAHA I lovE diS Pic!!!!=D

cool AR~

me n baby~~~~

my darling~

I AM SO RED!!!!!!LObstEr~

more pics comin up soon.=)

blogspot uploadin pics failed me... so i gota use tinypic.com..therefore some of the pics resize tl abnit weird lol.. SORRT MAN~

btw HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO 21 BASTIAN~~~~~=D

Thursday, August 10, 2006

i flunked my lab test. i score a ZERO. how cool. 0/100. HAHA. no maybe is -5/100... yah negative.my 10% gone. say no more. i am fuckin pissed.

well i scored 29/30 for maths. shld i be happy or wat? where does tt 1 mark gone to? CARELESS . fuck myself.

my mood sux for the whole mornin. apologised if i scare ani of u wif my alreadi-tanned-but-still-super-black face.. lol

sometime i wonder wats in their brain. dey praised themselves n describe as if dey are some saint... but in actual facts, they had their cock ruling their brain.. men... tsk tsk.. 1 word .. asshole but well dere r stil some nice peeps out dere n tts the minority..

well..im gona redo my circuit again.. the one i did was way to ugly i wanna score well for dis proj since i olreadi screw up the lab test.. ha.. i think supp paper loves me lot.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

rain in the mornin. we were so upset. but well.. heaven on our side we stil went sentosa n yeah had our tann!! lol..wee seng n jlow joined us ... we had some vodka n drinks.. n thanks to the guys which we duno who got treat us vodka too... maybe cos ah seng play vb wif them n jus nice dey were tanin next to us! haha.. n they are leng zai leh! LOL...

sorri to keep weili n gang waiting man.. tk cab down to meet them at tamp in the evenin.. me ali..weili..cindy..rena..felin..yang..6 of us 2 cars headed down to killiney for dinner. well.. i can say weili's driving skills sux! LOL.. makes us wanna vomit.. keep cham brake u noe..sai LOL.. yang was stil the same la..make ppl rolll behind haha.. but he drove his fren's fitz cool leh.. the sound system zai ar... bass damn shiok HAHA... headed off to seletar dam..some beer n of cos cig.. c car but no handsome.. wee lock was supposed to meet me at there but well he was caught up in jam in town n when we left he reached.. so sorri... a pity we missed the fireworks...

its a real nice day wif all the tannin..cigs..alcohol..hunks.... mani mani fotos to update..=) HAHA got to get them frm wen..cindy..rena.. LOL...

my body is burnin now... AHHH..lol..think tml sure sun burn ..my nose is red like a rudolf LOL...
i love skl cherry.. nice.. better den strawberry.. but the stick is in black looks like some sesame flavour..WTF? lol

i reli wanna get my own car!!! i cant wait.. i wan to zhng my car oso!!! lol..wif surround sound system.. turbo.. simi sai oso wan!! haha.. den the fire fire wan osoHAHAHAHA....

reli thanks to jian wei.. his reli nice man.. reli appreciate it.. thanks =)

my bdae is comin n partyworld had sent me mani mani vouchers.. 20 bucks voucher too!! haha... so cool!! dey olwaz send greetin cards on cny..xmas..bdae.. wif all those vouchers n most imptly the cards are handwritten..so xi xin rite..=)

after today.. no more playin..no more slackin.. buck up n start to be serious...=)

HAPPY 41 BIRTHDAY SPORE!!!!!!!! hAPpy NATioNAL daY~

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

i din went alone. my darling xin accompanied me=) thanks lot girl she offered to acc me when she noes im goin alone.. thanks so much=) of cos im feelin damn down n worried bout my leg but wif her presence i felt much better n less tense.. togther wif all those cam whoring n jokes we kinda make a fool outta ourselves in the hospital. i cant explain how relieved i felt after freeing myself frm tt cast... its so comfortable to work wif my leg again...

waiting for xray report was a torture..im so afraid.. my heart sank when i saw the report obviously the improvement wasnt tt great.. but well doctor say he wil remove the cast cos bones nid long time to grow completely..as long as i dun put on too much pressure on my feet ..dun run dun jog it wil be fine.. xray again 1 mth later... n if on long term dere isnt ani improvement i wil need an op to get it fixed.. well tt is when long term.. i hope it wil get well soon.=)

she came my hse for steamboat n i help her do manicure! haha.. daddy open red wine n now im sippin red wine while ypin out dis entry... cool~~~~ tml i heading to sentosa wif my girl! HAHA..ali !!! n yeah ktv in the after noon... steamboat n firewroks at nite.. i cant wait!

im gona get a bathe.. its been along time since i reli bathe properly..tt fuckin cast is such a hinder! im gona get my full body mango scrub.. facial srcub.. hair mask... facial mask..watever shit it is... im gona scrub it clean! LOL...

funny monkey pics up soon when i got it frm darling xin!! WeEeeE~ btw i scored 27/30 for my phy! HAHAHA FINALLY!=)

Monday, August 07, 2006

i shopped in sch today! those bikini at avenue 1 was totally awesome! actualli i wanna check out the lingerie over there but when we reached its not yet open... they changed their sales item..its all bikinis n accessoires.. it opens at 12.. so ii jus stood outside the shop n beo the stuff.. n a bikini caught my eyes! sad to say i gota rush back for my lecture.. n thru out the whole lect i kept thinkin bout tt bikini... its like askin me to buy them!!! LOL.. ahh..cant stand the tempt aniomre..farah acc me go! lol.. oh man! n i bought 2 sets of bikinis at 1 go! for a fuckin 22 bucks! so cheap rite..meanin 11 bucks for each set! haha.. n i got 1 vintage belt frm the push cart for 7.90.. actuali i prefer another design but since farah like it yeah i choose another 1...=) so happy i got the bikini!!!=)

yah i ve been thinkin bout the change course thingy. i reli regret not switchin to hospitality n tourism managment.. but well since i had come so far i wil jus haf to study well for my current course first.. i noe my chance of gettin in local U isnt tt high unless i reli study til kan hiong tt kind.. but well SIM wil be another option for me to study biz.. n jo.. i understand how u feel.. cos im totally not a sci person u noe.. i hate lab n experiment..its a waste of time..so wat if we get to study bout human body or bacteria or viruses..its not as if we r becomin a doctor.. when ppl ask me wat course am i in.. n dey heard the first word..BIOMEDICAL.. dey wil like wahhhhhhhhhh...gd prospect... gd gd..we nid dis kind of ppl.. i tell u..FUCK OFF MAN.. haha.. few yrs back ppl ask u wat course u in.. u say IT.. wahh gd gd gd.. we nid dis kind of ppl... now leh?? COME ON MAN~ haha.. so wat.. even a 5 yrs old kid noe how to set up a web page liao... ahhhhhhhhhhh... hate dis shit la..

tml !! i dun dare to think... i felt a lil uneasy.. some sort of bad omen?my lids keep twitching.. n started to think negatively.. AHHHHH...

nvm.. lao niang in gd mood today cos i reli love tt bikini... HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA=x

oo im glad im not sad or affected bout wat he told me ytd.. i jus kind of advice him =) well it doesnt matter animore aniway...

ah i jus tried on the bikini to let my mum see. n she says.. YAO XIUUUUUUUUUU AR..!!!!u wear like tt go beach ar ... LOL.. n my niece says she wans pink colour bikini! lol.. canot la she no neh.. wear not nice...LOL

Sunday, August 06, 2006

i feel like changin my course. i noe its alil late.

biomedical informatics engineering.

im not interested in medical.. neither am i interested in engineering.

i have been thinkin where wil my dip bring me to. wat job wld i get..

i dun love lab. i hate experiments... i detest circuit.

was chatting wif our grad senior. he told me he regret. no.. is THEY regret. regret for not switching course togther wif their coursemate who had quited in yr 1. those who quit r in right track.. those who din got lost after they grad. dey din get job related to dis course.. lucky ones got in biostats in nus.. suay ones.. jobless? or perhaps workin in xray dpt in hospital or yah workin as lab assistant wif a basic salary of 1.2k...

i duno man.

i regret y i din got at least a 6 in my eng right frm the start. at least i would end up in biz sch instate of engine. now tt i got a 4 after i retake.. i can change my course but im already goin in to yr 2.2.. jus another 1 n half a yr i wil complete dis course...

now im stuck in btw.

the angel told me to hang on n study hard first..dun waste the effort tt i had put in since yr 1 til now..

the devil told me to change course.. dun regret after i grad... stop wasting another 1 1/2 yr studyin smth which im not interested...

i duno man...

i woke up at 11 jus because of 1 person. tt fella call me n i cant slp animore. such a nice weather. WTF! i think tt fella seriously nid to get a life. it wil bring him no where havin the fuckin same thinkin. haiz. jus move on man~ yah in his case its love again. HA. i understand

im hungry. but no one hm. -.-. pls come back soon! bring some food too~~~

i cant stand guys who chao geng in army. be a man la. comeon 2 yrs dere jus do ur best instead of whining n whining tt its tough..sai kang...low paid... slave.. all dis shit. u got cock one leh... not pussy u noe...tsk.. gu niang... ive frens who are posted to ndu n they were so proud of themselve even thou its tough..diver unit leh.. u think more slack den u all meh.. more tough lo.. more handsome oso HAHAHAHAH... n wat one of them say reli makes me go WOW.. he said.. 2 yrs jus do my best .. try til my limit..im a man.. wah cool ar..

hungry~~~~

Saturday, August 05, 2006

i was at the starhub anni jus now. i went there to look for my colleagues . i saw so mani familiar faces...!a pity i din work cos .i saw HANDSOME PROMOTERS!!! ...FUCK LEH! TSK.....not much customers n i can see that the cashiers are kan eng lo! hahah.. i saw yvette ..terri..laura.. xiong di(wilson) ...sharon.. terrence..den i saw my in charge!!! travis n hans! o man! i fuckin miss them u noe.. haha den hans..yvette..alvin..JOANNA!!!! came up n talk to me..dey were like aiyo y so long nv work den dey c my leg! haha..i miss workin wif them man..as usual hans n travis are so cute!! i jus love them to bits... hans travis joanna best incharge la!!!

i sinned again! bought FBT shorts... spag frm gio... sunglasses! i love tt sunglass u noe.. those bummer bee kind.. wah fuck its kan chio lo..too bad my bro tk away the digi cam.. no pic=( its 17 bucks..of cos mum paid.. she ask me to return her when i got money but well u noe.. i wont..HAHAHA... i tried ben n jerry ice cream today~ n 1 word..SHIOK.!! btw we were fuckin pissed off wif the suntec carpark management.. all the cars are stuck dere n dey cant get out! i think deres smth wrong wif the card machine.. we were stuck in carpark for bout 30 mins.. finally we gave up n park our car went back to shoppin place n had ben n jerry.. we were til like 11.45??!! YAH.. n after tt we were stuck in traffic jam at geylang for another 30 min??? yah n we head off to 85 for supper.. n guess wat??? WE GOT A 50 BUCKS CARPARK FINE !!
WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! in the end we reach hm ard 1 plus AM...omggg....

lol..was it suay or wat???HAHA

aniway i reli miss my ihubbers.... i hope i can join them in work soon... =) tuesday wil be the judgement day again..somehow i dun reli dare to pin too much hope too.. high hope=great disappointment.. heh...

btw i saw alot sunshine guy today.. u noe..tann tann..short black hair.. den wif a diamond stud ...wear num top...fit fit msucular tt kind.. WAH LAN EHHHHHHHHHH..... sibeh yd leh!! HAHA.. den i tel my mum..lol.. den she was like aiyo..find mus find got car..got money..got card one... find dis one got looks got size for wat! HAHA...WTF??????

seems tt my girl can actuali sense dao my mood even thou i din breathe ani words to her.

basically i duno wat im troubling over. i jus got sick of certain things u noe.

i mean his nice his sweet.. but yah i duno.. baby makes me confused..i cant be bothered animore.. n i felt kinda bad to gif those 1 word reply sometime..

btw i dreamt of casper.. haha.. as usual ..he stil took care of me protect me in the dream jus like in the real life.. i wonder how is he now.. he claimed tt he nv change. he say tt i shld noe.. n i noe. i rmb clearli one of the scene in my dream.. his the best la.. haha.. i felt like msgin him.. but aiyah i duno wat his thinkin..
tsk ...

its that day of the month. dun like dun like. makes me feel so weird. but im glad it came so at least when sentosa on wed... i can be menses free~ HAHAHAHAHA..

i wanna change hp...=(the current one is givin me too much problem.. so old liao..but i jus upgrade it to get a new hp for my mummy...if i wanna get is either new line or w/o line... =( no money noe.........siao diao...

Friday, August 04, 2006

i was doin the soldering for my circuit board. happily doin. but guess wat? i paid to much attention to tt thing n when i reach out my hand for tt soldering iron .. I SCALD MY FINGERS! FUCKIN PAIN MIND U!... immediately i saw my skin turned white was pain like fuck! put my fingers under the runnin tap.. blisters on my 1st n 2nd finger!=( pain til cry noe... =(

but now kinda alrite thou its stil painful.. i dun feel like doin soldering animore.. scare man... can ani kind soul do for me????? LOL... haiz...

ehhhhhhhhhhhhhh more spree pls... !!! boo.. the top i got haven reach spore yet.. i nid more spree~~ we wan more~ we wan more~ y r we waiting~ y r we waiting~ LOL..

bored~ did u guys watch ch 8 9 pm show? love at zero degree? aWwwWWw~~~ swEEt DAoOOoOo~~~ so sweet rite tt guy....jealous man......

had lunch wif eugan at pizza hut. tt fella cut his hair! cock hair i can say... LOL.. damn ugly lo. no rush to cut botak boi..ur goin in ns next yr..wats the rush now..HAHAHAHA=X its olwaz great to meet up ur fav frens for lunch n do some catchin up. oh man i miss him like hell. we ordered chic n shroom bolognse..hawaiian pizza..hut platters.. wooo~~ FULL! LOL.. for a fuckin 22 bucks.. cheap eh... but i can say the service kinda bad..booo...

went round shoppin for awhile im lookin for shorts wanna get the FBT de.. but ar its like damn big size n the cuttin dun suit me.. i think i wil get it else where tml. he say tt carrefour got.. heh=) i bought a shorts frm bum... 12 bucks.. n i bought lots of tibits for my niece.. use it to shoo her away when im doin my work..haha.. n i bought the A1 curry puffs for my mum.. =) i noe she loves it... top up my fare cards.. total up..bout 50 bucks gone??? like a few stuffs n 50 bucks flew off!

i spents the whole of my med eln lecture chattin wif wen qi... spend the whole of biomed phy lect on crappin... n i finish my maths quiz within 10 mins...n i only pay attention to molgen lect today...HAHAHAHAHA

btw.. im thinkin of gettin bucket eclipse frm gucci...

Thursday, August 03, 2006

i was brought high up to the sky.

soaring.

the next moment , i fell.

hard on the ground.

i broke my wings. shattered my heart.

i dun dare to fly animore.

u dun catch me when i fall.

y am i missing u.

tell me.

save me.

i dun wanna live in the past.

sch has been alrite today. tml gona haf maths quiz. practise a lil. im happy cos my circuit draft are finally done after redoin it for like 6 or 7 times? well..i guess i wil redo it even more when it comes to patchin the actual circuit.

i duno wat to blog. my life gettin duller... i duno wat isit tt i wan. deres nth to motivate me ..no drive in me..i lost the adrenaline to do things.. i lost the interest in sch... i lost faith in myself.. nthing fascinates me.. nth makes me goes WOW... n like.. sch sucks...home suckx... everyting sux... theres nth wrong wif my family so far..jus tt i got pissed wif my bro sometime.. got pissed wif my mum... got pissed wif my niece..jus got pissed wif everyone in the hse over lil things..but i remain silence. quarrel wil onli make things worst...

all of a sudden i miss jie. i wonder how is she. hows life over dere. its been a long time since i last dreamt bout her. i was talkin to shantini bout her cousin..cos he oso met wif a bike accident n it reminded me bout jie. suddenli those flashback came flooding my mind. u noe.. the blood.. the face.. so cold.. so deadly.. shes gone.. n later.. i saw her smiling to me singing n talkin at the same old playground we used to hang ard..i seriously regret.... regret for not cherishing her when shes ard... dis is life? u onli learn to cherish when its gone..

u do things in the opp way. when accidents happened it becomes too late.. n u start to regret.. not long after tt u make the same old mistakes again.. its a vicious cycle..

jiejie i miss u....

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

i onli have an hr lesson today. n i stil go sch! HAHA. tt is so nottt me man~ wtf!ok finally my circuit draft is done i jus need to like redraw a few parts n den finalise it b4 i start on the patchin up. =D hahaha~~

i found new nice food in sch.the chicken leg pasta at jupiter cafe.. i think its nicer than the fish n chip lo! HAHA.. lunching wif moi girl~ WeEe.. den we went reservoir-ing again~ LOL...

life sux. sch sux. everyting sux. oh man~ i jus hate all those test quiz..exam..simi sai eh.. haiz.. gettin stress up liao ar...si jiao!=x

im not workin for starhub anni le... cos jo scare my leg canot tahan..i oso dun wanna risk it. yeah. n yah therenia ask me go work rdshow for osim.. the uzap..LOL. 8 per hr sial~ haha.. but my leg like fuck sial! dis injury cost me alot money..make me lost oppurtunity to work..ARGHHHH...

watever..im in mood to study today. so yah.. i gotta go ta cek liao... =)

bubye~~

i did some sewing...

look like my name?

a button n my name.