yesterday's f e e l i n g s

Saturday, December 31, 2005

today is the last day of 2005!!!! n i slept til 3.30pm!!! lol..guess i;ll nv change dis

bad haibt.. forget it.. so wat am i doin now... ai mei lo.. the nose pore patch are

stickin onto my nose now lol...

mum is preparing me my lunch now..hoho... n after eating i will change n head to

town!!! to meet my darling gers!!! huey wen cher bao n bird..! wooo.... we said

le..tonite no drunk no go hm..lol...BU ZUI BU GUI... hohohoho=D....

gtg... take care all dearies!!!!! HAPPY NEW YR IN ADVANCE!=D

Friday, December 30, 2005

WARNING: DIS IS A SUPER DUPER LONG ENTRY

i jus came back frm the metro sales at expo..bought 3 pairs of shoes..i pair of

flats..i pair of heel n 1 for presentation.its was kinda cheap man.=) my evil plan of

gettin my mum paid for it FAILED. ive got to pay it myself.SoB.=(

ive msged jo tellin her i wanna work for ihub next weekend. im gonna start workin

n saving up money again. ive been spending like nobody business for the netire

week.ive got a shock when i calculated the amot. its exceeded 400 buacks n its veri

near to 500..DISASTROUS.. tml im gonna club again n im spendin again..gdness..

so im gonna slog my ass off. new wishin list for 2006.n i reli got to work

extra hard

to get it man.

-gucci sling bag

-lv wallet

-gucci belt

-new hp.

-save up for trip to bkk or hk

jus the first 3 items i can work til crazy lol.-.-

when i recalled back yr 2005 was reli a veri slackin yr for me. 2004 was a

year when i work n slogged so hard for o level.. 2003 was the yr when i practised

so hard for various competition..SYF.. CE comp.. n both we got gold n champion..

2005? its the year when i get to noe diff kind of ppl..its the year when i walked out

of my comfort zone n enter to a different world.. i get to c how ppl changed..how

ppl do things behind ur back.. i experienced things i nv tried b4...

2005.. i worked in various places.. ebase.. its when my style reli starts to

change..my dressing.. my looks.. i get more confident.. most of the colleagues r

nice n frenly.. 2005 i learnt my first puff.. which was a bad one.. .. i work ebase for

2 mths plus..quitted n slacked for a mth b4 i get into missha.. i reli love dis job.i

get to handle n play wif cosmetics..skincare n etc. i love my customers. the

satisfaction i get when i saw my cutomers so happy wif the make up i help them

put on.. i get to noe 3 great colleagues.. serene..wendy ..xiao serene=) esp

wendy n serene.. dey reli gif me alot of advices n aught me alot of new things..i

missed those days=) i quit my job not cos of my sch work actuali.. but cos of

certain reasosn.. now serene is quitting cos of the same reason... n tt veri same

reason had made victor resigned too.. dis is sad...

i got into a poly..tryin hard to adapt to it at first..ppl dun haf gd impression of me

cos im said to look like a lian n some of them were intimidated by me. but dis dun

reli affects me cos im kinda used to it. as time goes by..they noe tt im actuali not tt

sort of ppl..which im glad=) ive had mani great frens.. jt n henry my sisters

which 3 of us simply jus cling on to one another everywhere we go.. my classmates

r great bunch of buddies too.. bong celia missie etc..my coursemates were cool

man..i jus love them..elfanie* cLUbbIN kHAkis* ..zhiren..cindy..faizal..jian

wei..zhi yu..david..bernard... etc etc...

2005 i experienced great heartbreak..which now im slowli walkin out of it... its

the yr i tried chain smokin cos of tt.. 6 or 7 cigs continously jus outside mary

brown which i skipped my lecs n jus go vent out my sadness dere...i tried out new

things other than puffin... i pierced my bellly.. i starts to get addicted to trends n

cosmetics.. i splurge like hell.. i love enjoyment.. i went to club.. i spend hrs

slackin at starbucks n play pool... i din do much studyin ... except for last min

study when test or exams r round the corner.. =x..2005 i went into a process of

changing after tt most heart wrenchin break up.. n dis process of changing was

goin gd.. both physically n mentally...

2006 will it be better?? i hope it will be a yr full of fun n laughter=) n of cos it

wil be better if i found someone tt i truly love n he truly loves me too=) who doesnt

want tt rite... haha... 2006 i wanna go oversea again... japan..bangkok or hk.. it one

of dis place... but im saving up to go bkk wif my frens n kl wif frens... gosh....

jus left wif 1 day plus it wil be 2006... a new start new hope n new wish...=) reli

pray tt tml will be a nite full of fun...=D cheerios to u guys... fun yr ahead..=)

2006 new yr resolution: BE SUPER DUPER HAPPY

FOR ALL THE 365 DAYS.=)

love angel

Thursday, December 29, 2005

i slept til 1 plus today. met up wif weili after tt. headed town for movie. was to

watch our movie at cine but hell man.. the seats for our show was left wif the front

row..-.-so we headed to shaw hse..hoho.. kingkong ! lol.. lunch at mac.. my lunch

was taken ard 4 plus.. my gdness..cos i left hse w/o ani food..was starving like

hell.. went over to FEP to buy my contact lenses=) i bought 3 pairs grey .. love the

colour..rox man=) big eye contacts..hehe...

king kong was like bored.. 3 hrs man..sit til our butt pain.. its was kinda

draggy.. been bout 8465786456896 yrs ever since my last movie..-.- dun reli like

movie n til now i stil dun reli like it .. but im lookin forward for the memoir of

geisha..=) met up wif my bro at bugis afterwards to go n fetch my parents..dey

returnin frm kl.. n gosh i saw another him.. y mus i c either of them when i had

already made my decision?? the sight of him makes my heart skipped n im

trapped in btw the 2 of them again.. reli sick of it...haiz..sian boooo..

was askin my mum if i could go club wif my my gers.. n she was like... WAT?! UR

GOIN OUT LATE AGAIN...-.- fuck.. but i go begged n teh my dad n he allowed!!

haha was like fuckin happy can... n my mum was kp-ing my father..lol.. but stil

dey let me go BUT on one condition nn tts my dad wil fetch me at 3am

SHARP..lol.. k lo... better than nth..stil got ppl fetch me hm..gd deal.. HAHA..

GONNA GO LIQUID!!!!!!!! wahaha.. happy man... EH WHO WANNA GO

LIQUID ON SAT NITE CALL MY HP OK!!!!!!!!... i think im

goin to drink til seh again.. lol..den i will c who i will call again.. haha.. my

gdness...

*my 9awd.. my ex de bro wan jio me..as in real life bro.. wat has the world become-.-

i miss tt someone.. =) i jus wish time wil jus stop at ytd tt moment...=)

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

my mood got slightly better today...=) thanks god

its today tt i went for pool session wif my ger..

its today when i saw him dere...

its today when i noe tt his the one i like now...

its today i kept on smiling to myself..

n its onli til today i noe my feelings for him is not a crush..

its ytd when im sad...

its ytd when the songs jot out my past memories..

its ytd tt i had a chat wif weili..

n its ytd i realised its not tt i stil love simon...

its jus tt im not gan xin tt our relationship jus end without a proper ending..

wei li said.. its not tt i stil love him n its not tt his the best guy i ever had.. its jus

the way he end the relationship..no reason was gave.no explanations were

made..it makes me kept on thinkin for the reason n stil pin for some hope.. if he

had end the relationship wif me wif a reason and wif explantions made.. i wouldnt

live in such misery.. yup its true.i totali agree wif wat he said.

deres nv a day tt im trueli happy when we broke off....thou its been a few mths but

theres not even a day tt when i recalled now i noe i feel happy...

today im diao at tamp for the whole day..went for pool session=) i kept on get

distracted cos of some reason which my girl noes... the song dey played today was

great..RNB.. makes me feel like goin liquid again..=) headed off for starbuck

session after tt..as usual rhumba n warm choco cake.our all time fav..when round

slackin..thou i din bought anitin or wat but jus being wif my ger n the tot of him

my mood jus got better... saw jy wl n felicia..=) so happy!! den met up wif weili n

tok cock.. karen n vivian were dere oso..all pasirian!! cool.. haha..pasirian

rox..lol.. viv n karen was frenli n all of us kept luffin..interestin

conversation..HAHA... actuali got to meet eric for roundin..but tt idiot makes me

wait like no tml..got fed up n decide not to wait.. HA!...qi si ren...b000...tml gonna

mit weili to go town wanna but my contacts n goin for movie! hohohoh...=)

thou now i noe my feelings for him r true..but i wil jus let it be like dis.. i dun wan

to keep on buggin him or msg him now n then.. im afraid he wil be irritated...i dun

wish tt cos of me he wil think of her.. i dun wish to be sub...jus happy to c him or

hear frm him=)

even when i woke up im mood is stil extremely low. sigh. feel like doin smth

extreme.sigh. low low low. low DaOOoOooOoOOoO....sigh..................

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

i am feelin so damn moody... reli veri moody.. its was extreme tt i started

tearing....i duno wat got into me.. but im jus so moody.. i stopped tearin for

awhile.. n den it starts again.. i din bother to stop myself..i jus let it flow..let it

tear..i hope i will feel better....

went sch for proj .din manage to finish a single one..jus started a bit here n dere ..

managed to complete tcs online tut.. headed to tm after tt.. went ard slackin..

went to find my ger=) shes workin at starbucks.. acc her for dinner.. she got me my

all-time fav rhumba... n i bought a slice of my fav oreo cheesecake.. its was sinful

but yet heavenly=D~ her fren casper came n he got us haagen dazz ice cream. my

gdness ! 3 scoops.. so yuMmy!!! ITS A DAMN SINFUL DAY.. i dun even dare to tk

ani dinner after tt... was chatting wif casper after she went back to work.. a nice

guy n indeed spore r small.. his huimin's fren.. =)

went back to look for bong n jt dey all... actuali gonna mit eugan n frens at safra

for bowling but it rained n im damn sian..was thinkin if i shld go but haiz i decide

not to go..my mood suddenli become extremely low..duno y... jus go so low low low

n low.. arghh

n tml im so sian tt i dun feel like goin out..... my mood are so damn

lowwwwwwwwwww.. duno y im reli pek chek........ no moodd...

i think im makin a fool outta myself.. is it all tt i wan so difficult to achieve... i dun

req much.. jus a simple wish n i couldnt get.. im so fuckin irritated...i claimed tt i

can be.. but actuali i couldnt.. ever since 31 july.. dere was nv one day tt im truly

happy... im so sick of all those ard me.. dey aint true n i can sense tt.. when dey get

it.dey've got a sense of achievement n soon dey wil ignore u .....y isit so.. ? dis gotta

do wif ego? or isit dey wanna show off ? or isit dey haf placed a bet? its reli gots on

my nerve.. i reli dun wish tt history wil repeat..it had carved a veri deep scar in

me.. i dun even noe if its healed now..i wanted to get someone to heal it. but im

afraid tt will makes me suffer another scar n perhaps it wil be even deeper..even

harder for me to recover....

jus let me get tipsy again ..jus like the xmas eve.. i love tt nite..when i was feeling

tipsy n i jus do wat i wan.. dance n cheer all i wan.......

went out wif my darling AH xIN!!! had a great time man!! we

went foto whoring !! neoprint lo..we spent along time queing for tt damn machine

u noeeeeee..... we headed to cafe cartel *aGaiN-.-* for dinner... haha..n im glad

she loves it =D... hehe

we had a great time chatin n shoppin..exchangin xmas pressie=D thanks ger for

DA cHoCoLATe! mY fAV!=D we went round shopp n shop its was god damn

sinful man!! we bought alot lo.. we bought a similar denim skirt=) HEHEHE... i

spend bout 150 over today a damn big hole in my pocketttt.. we went to a shop at

FEP .. name candle.. the shop assistant,anson, was damn frenli.. haha.. n the

saleger too.. fun ppl dere.. damn gd joker..each of us bought a denim skirt

*agAin* there.. ive got my skirt drawn by anson.. its was some nice flowers drawn

on the spot.. n ive got my name wrriten at the back of my pocket! haha..cool

yea...=).. bought a cardigan too... hohoho..all at FEP damn tt place made us burn

big big hole.. my darling she oso bought 2 denim skirts lol...

we went back to heeren to get the belt tt my darling wanted... i was thinkin wether

i shld get tt belt too... n she kept psychoin me to buy !!!! ahhh!!!!!

SINFUL!!!!! ... i was so determined not to buy tt i even stepped out of the

shop.. in the end i relented n i bought that belt... 29.90 bucks...

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....i feel like gettin the necklace...15.90 buucks onli....!

nvm i wil go buy went i go out wif ali on wed=)

its was great to went out wif her man..=)thou we did alot unglam actions by

pointin middle finger * i think it was me onli* n scoldin vulgarites...but we dun gif

a damn la..haha.. tml gonna go sch for proj n den goin to starbuck for slackin wif

eugan.. hoho.. my darlin workin at starbuck can go c her oso!!=) yea yea...

i burnt a fuckin big hole in my pockect!!!! HUIXIN U GOT 50 BUCKS REBATE..I

GOT 100 BUCKS!!! LOL...

*boN voYAge YorKiE! enojy ya trip to genting!!!!

Sunday, December 25, 2005

MErRy Xmas To alLl!!!!!!!!

hows ya xmas eve nite??? celebration song bo???? wah lan eh..mine was damn

fuckin fun can!!!! HAHA

my ger came my hse after work.. we prepared le den go down town.. headed to

ps..slack dere den we headed off too LIquID rM!!!!

so me her..elfanie kawen was at liquid! jason n frens supposed to join us but they

cant get in cos full hse le so dey went to rush n we stayed at liquid! the music there

was great man!!! as i said..RNB OLWAZ ROX!~ we dance til droppEd!

lol.. the dance floor was emptied at first but it was so damn packed after a

while...! haha.. we stl dance la..kawen dance til so sexy yea... dun judge a bk by its

cover lol.. we 4 girls dance in a cirle like facing each other..n soon we got

surrounded by guys..its like..reli kena circled.. buT who cares la!!! lol.. dey keep

grindin us oso...-.- we had vodka..sex on the beach.. graveyard.. wtf.. i din noe

that graveyard contain so much alcohol.. n i ended up gettin high .. went back for

dance again.. n we got surrounded again.. -.-

on our way to toilet i cant even walk properly.. so we were coolin down outside the

gallery hotel.. jus lied flat on the floor..=x..lol

MY GIRL VOMITED TWICE!!!!!!!! =x she kept askin me to look at

her vomited stuff! ErK!!!!! ... i cant vomit out thou i feel like vomiting...was so

giddy...i cant reli rmbered wat i said.. i dun reli even noe i called who til i saw my

dialled call n i got a fuckin shock..-.- i sort of rmb i called him but i cldnt rmb

wat i say.. n i duno y i call him!!! lol... * iTS noT simoN TT i CALLeD la* after we

stable abit le we went back for dance again!!! !! shiok sia.....hahaa.

supper at ms.. the bak kut teh was nice thou=) reach hm ard 4 am..i din bother to

bathe myself.. jus washed my face n went to slp.. KO olreadi... lol... damn fun

nite.. n my parents noe tt im seh alreadi..cos dey saw tt i cant even walk str! lol..

LIquiD JUS roX!!!! NIcE MusIC... FRenLi BounCer... niCE Dj!

MErRY Xmas AGAin!!=D

Saturday, December 24, 2005

biofund paper was alrite today! DR RAVI U ROX! haha..all the tips u gave came

out!

headed to town wif bong celia..jt..faizal..missie!! elfanie joined us afterwards...

dinner at cafe cartel..eat til wanna burst.. den photowhooring!!! haha.. took

neoprint too=D orchard was filled wif ppl man!! my gdness... we made a fool of

ourself too..haha.. we cheer so damn loudli for those xmas carols..n everyone llok

at us.. -.-..we walked away quickly..n tt was my stupid idea lol.. bUT it was fun!

haha.. shopin at tangs n far east... bought a white leather watch wif diamonds!!

bLIng BLinG! HAHA

theres midnite sales at wisma..so me n elfanie went ahead n the rest went hm...

walk ard..wanted to look for heels but non of it caught my eyes..forever 21 wasnt

havin sales.. tops r nice but i dun think they worth the price.. landed up in top

shop.. spent bout 50 bucks there..WeeEee.. bought a top.. n 2 XxxXx LOL.. n a

body spray ..i love the floral scent=D....

tmls xmas eve! din reli decide on where to go.. clubbin was like fun but it wil be so

damn pack.dun think theres space to dance too.. jus like squeein in an enclosed

area full of smoke n sweat..jus think of it im kind of turned off...-.-.... was outside

indochine jus now.. its so damn packed...mine u its jus the outside the entrance

dere.. imagine all those ppl inside wah lao... think u can jus suffocate n die

there..=x.... n its not even xmas eve lo.. xmas eve i think wil be double or triple the

ppl... sian-.- n a 17 can go aniwhere..cant get into black..zouk..dbl

o..rouge..momo..mu..mos..indochine.. where else u say.. the others r jus those

place for those bengs n lian.. not happy wil huat poem..-.- wah sian..somemore is

techno.. duh... RNB la..! i jus hope liquid rm wil be the best place..heard tt dey din

check ic yea? gd music there too yea? but place kinda small? jus hope i wont

ended up counting down when im stil quein up to get in..lol..

XMas!! hoPE It Wil Be Fun! =D

Thursday, December 22, 2005

haiz. ytd i cant get to slp. toss n turn on my bed til 4 plus. its not tt i dun wan slp. i

jus couldnt get into dreamland. jus scold me useless la. i duno y all of a sudden he

came invading my tots again. who else. simon tan lo. tt bastard. its been 4 freakin

mths.wtf.n im stil lovin him as much..jus like before. argh.......im not gonna force

myself to forget him animore. jus let it be.-

edevice paper was fuckin hell shit difficult. 4 qn..deres not a qn i can answer it

correct confidently... no one left the class earli..everyone was crackin their head

thinkin of solution once they got their butt stick on the chair...-.- forget it..

was muggin wif celia bong n faizal in library jus now.. lol.. great time chatiing n

crappin instead of studyin..haha=x...

im addicted to dis bracelet from vivienne westwood.. i saw it on yahoo auction... n

its 40 bucks.. u guys think its nice??? nid ya comments... tag my blog pls

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

was slackin ever since i reach hm after tt sucky biochem paper ytd.. slack til now

7pm! wtf... ive got like no mood to ta cek lo.. at hm reli canot concentrate sia..lol..

jus do abit of the term test qn paper for the edevckt..den i walk here walk dere in

my rm.. walk up n down my hse... go tk dis tk tt.. den go do mask.. wtf! den come

online.. go yahoo auction.. chat msn.. machiam tml no test..-.-..

ive got so mani tings nid to do sia.. i haven buy my chi new yr clothes leh.. n my

mama olreadi buy hers liao..she buy alot sia.. she can wear diff pattern frm chu yi

til shi wu liao...lol

dis fuckin term test better be over fast... i cant wait to go for pedicure wif my niao

ren aka HUi XIn!!!! memeber of my bird family!!! lol....

i miss my bird family n monkey republic memebers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! where the birds

n monkey unite.. Me BIrd huIXIn Xy N FabbY!! haha...

I MISS GUO TIAO FRM PURPLE BOWL STORE OF PRSS!!!!

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

ok its been a long time since i post up my zhi lian pic..HAHAHAHAHA... ok so

heres SOME..of my zhi lian foto..lol

taken when im muggin in sch library.. proj study rm... my spects..first time i wore

my spect in sch..lol..

taken ytd b4 i go sch... =x.

dis my fav.. =D...look dao rite.. no la..is style..lol

i love dis top..!!! frm mng!!!=D

NIAO DE LA...

i think DR RAJA purposely set the paper to niao us 1 lo..difficult la..nbpcb.. all

come out protein n enzyme sia... i study carbo not 1 qn come out except for tt 2

marks qn.. cb...

i noe hair are made of fibrous protein la.. but how the hell would i noe it will

stretch n extend when u wash hair wif water... wtf... den the mcq oso ho seh liao

lo.. RNA shld be aldopentose rite..i go n choose aldohexose... shit de leh.. but heng

i got correct for the DNA qn.. DNA REPLICATION ARE

SEMICONSERVATIVE!!! GET TT IN MIND!!!! lol

jia lat la..nb... fail liao lo... niao ta de la.... tml no paper... thurs edevckt paper den

fri biofund paper...arghhhh

2 more paper nia la.. tong a bit.. my ger she happy liao lo..finish her paper liao lo..

sms oso no reply liao lo..duno she go where hiao liao lo.... jealous..i nid to wait til

fri finish paper den can go hiao... -.-

Monday, December 19, 2005

maths paper today! if dere aint ani silly careless mistakes.. im confident tt i can

score full marks.. haha=D

studied in sch wif my girl after tt... weEeEEe!!! lol..lotsa tidbits..muahah...

i cant wait for xmas eve man.!!! yeah!!!

o yeah .. i will be full of activities rite after my last paper!! fully occupied frm 23

nite til 28!!!! haha.. im goin to colour n highlight my hair!!!!! ..

*i shld hav done tt earlier.. shldnt hav dragged on n let ya carry false hope. the

words i said may be harsh but ive got to tell the truth.no matter wat its

impossible.u may say tt im selfish.. im jus happy n contented wif wat i haf now.

sorri..

2006 resolution-------- BE DAMN FUCKIN HAPPY!!! HAHA...

im a happy girl!!! wahahahahahaha....

o me n my girl discovered smth......... our heart are linked togther man!!!

telepathy!!! wahahahaha....

o bloody shit... i nid to go study for my biochem!!! lotsa shit to memorise...

carbohydrates..DNA RNA...enzyme..protein... simi sai la.... sian diao-.-

nevertheless ive got to work hard!! cos jus bout 4 more days im freed!

heheheheheh....

Sunday, December 18, 2005

i din woke up at 2 dis mornin.. i ignored my alarm..n my hp ki siao again.. no

reception! my dear ger cant contact me..she cant wake me up n i continue to

slp like a dead pig..woke up at 5 to go toilet.. look at the time n i got a shock. heck

care n went back to slp..Zzz... got up at 10 plus.. n i slack ard..settled down for

mugging ard 11 plus... started wif my maths n biochem at nite=)

my dad bought me a canon printer tt cost bout 400 over.. he said it was a xmas

present for me..YEAH! happy!.. i can print my own stuff le.. thou ive got a printer

at hm but i dun wish to use it cos its my bro's.i seriously dun like to use his

things.. im always blamed when things goes wrong..even thou im not in the wrong

i stil haf to admit tt im the one whos in fault..cos the more iargue..the more he

think imuilty of it.. n tts y I DUN LIKE TO USE HIS STUFFS...!

yea ..so i gotta go back to study le... wish me luck for my term test ba!!!..=D i love

dis xmas..cos ive got lots of stuff being strike off frm my wishing list... the

necklace.. the MAC... the printer... wahaa...

mm...shld i get the ESPRIT watch.. the GUESS handbag..or the GUCCI wallet...?

Saturday, December 17, 2005

was mugging in sch library today! headed off to pavillion for pool session ard 4

plus.. n go off for shoppin after tt.. was happy tt i got my pay..n the amount ive got

makes me damn happy n pUZZled AT the same time too..cos the amt are quite

''huge'' n i cant figure out y i got so much!! after tt den i realised tt dey return me

the amt tt dey had deducted extra for cpf frm my previous few pays..

YEAH!!! ....

bought a sling bag for my mum..shes been aimin tt bag veri long..xxmas prezzie

for her=) met my parents ard 7.. n bought 4 tops frm mango! love its loads man...

total 90 bucks..my mum paid 60 bucks for me n i paid the rest.. hoho.. we went

round shoppin n buying things... my dad bought xmas pressie for my niece too!!

later at nite we went to my grandma hse to collect my xmas present frm my aunt!!

she bought MAC limited edition brush set for me!!! n oso a necklace!! she knew tt i

had been searchin for it damn long n she got it for me!!! love it!!!=) ... den my ah

ma n my godmother each gave me 100 bucks to buy clothes for chi new year!!!!

WeEEeEeeEeEeeEe!!!!!!! U C I CAN DUN HAPPY ANOT LA!! U TELL ME U

TELL ME!! hUH hUH HUh!!!!=D

my parents will be goin KL during my december 1 week holiday for bout 3 days!!! n

im not goin! cos ive got lots of proj to do!! BUT...!!!!! haha..without them to be in

spore MEANS i can go hanky panky!! lol... MEANS i can go out til damn freakin

late oso no ppl KB me!!!! MEANS i can dun fold my blanket n leave my aircon on

when i wake up for the whole day!!!! MEANS.....i can ............hIak HIak Hiak

Hiak....LOL...

ok im jus veri happy now... !!!! BUT stilll...im muggin for my term test later

on....yeah...

jus let me scream one more time alrite....

I AM FUCKIN HAPPY!!!!

JI GAO XING Y I XIA!!!!!

IVE GOT 4 DIGIT NOW!!!!!!!!$_$!!!!!!

I WANT TO HIT 6 DIGIT!!!!LOL...DEN I WILL PROCLAIMED MYSELF

AS A YOUNG 17 YRS OLD TAI TAI!!!!!!....

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA....

Friday, December 16, 2005

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH IM SO KAN SI LANG TIRED!!!!!

physically exhausted..mentally drained.. ive been drownin myself wif coffee n

redbull dis few days!!

edevckt lab test SUCKS!..i guess i flunk it....

went for the Dr william tan's talk..i jus loves the way he does his talk..his

p0werpoint presentation was short sweet n nice..his speechwas indeed veri

inspiring..n i reli respect him *salute*.. his will power r damn strong man..

oh gosh...i saw SB2 after the william tan talk..kena di siao by charbor n

nut..paiseh sia!!headed to free access lab wif bernard..zhi yu..jian wei..david n

henry to do the jap online quiz..helpin one another to do..haha..i score 19/20

wor..! lol..=D thakns to them man...

headed off to library for muggin wif bong celia n faizal(think spell like tt la=x) ...

woo... study ckt all the way.. our ah bong teach me n celia biochem!!! =D..haha...

jus love studyin wif them cos they are always willing to help when im in doubt..=D

todays mugging was quite fun actuali.. was crapping after tt..lol..full of luffter...

oo..n i sort of mastered how to speak english in ah neh accent frm ah bong..

wahah=x

i think ive been goin sch late soOoOoOOoO often tt i couldnt bump into SB2 at

obs..!!=( !!! HAHA..guess when tt charbor jt see dis she will start laughing n scold

me sjb...=x.. SB2 r now my daily dose of mood lifter lol...

tml mugging wif my ger in the library.. den bong celia dey all will be muggin in sch

too.. but theirs at proj rm..ours at study rm..=( think will go di siao them n get

some biochem stuff frm them... hehe...

i gotta go slp for awhile..wakin up for muggin ard 2 am..=D..

Thursday, December 15, 2005

im reli veri stressed up n0w. i haf got 5 projects on hand

jap role play--script writing

--role play

psps --power point presentation

biomedical fundamental --script n presentation

java programmin -- auto mobile financing applet

-- report

tcs -- online tut

--reading assignment

--research journal

--oral presentation

OH MY FUCKIN GOD! got 3 of them thier dateline are before sch reopen!!!!!! sad-.-

was muggin in sch library till 7 plus..wif bong n celia.. manage to study finish 1

topic of ckt..gotta study another topic later on n im done wif tt subj... biochem is

so sucky tt i alreadi feel like giving it up... biofund's still manageable.. thanks to

ravi helpin us to minus off those unwanted stuff... maths jus need more pract...

will be muggin in library again tml n on sat.. stressed up mannn... oh goshhh... ive

got ckt lab test tml...=( kinda worried bout it...ive \not done my jap online quiz tt

r due on sat yet..goin cyber centre to do it wif frens tml...

gonna go get formal wear soon..lookin forward for shoppin of formal wear wif my

frens!!! wahaha...i bet we will sure haf tons of fun man... =D

*i nid rhumba for destressing..shoppin for mood lifting...

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

skipped biochem lec=x...followed by skippin cgint ..n den an hr break..so was free

for 3 hrs..where do i go??? tamp! lol..headed off to kfc for lunch wif jt..yummy!!

den went over to this fashion.. yea..dey got good buy dere ..u jus haf to go n dig n

find..lol.found a super nice velvety bubble skirt tt r maroon in colour.. had

decided to buy it. but it dun haf a price tag..n the sales ger dere jus cant find the

price..n i cant buy it!! I AM VERI DAMN FUCKIN DU LAN BOUT DIS!... dey took my

number n say will call me up asap.. n dey reserved tt skirt for me.. better call me if

not im gonna COMPLAIN!!!! lol..

we went over for shoppin at tm.. oo..i bought soft toy!! tigger n piglet ..kawaii desu

ne!!!!! tigger is for myself..n the piglet hp holder is for my bro.. xmas pressie..! im

such a sweet n nice sis =D... took cab back to sch n went for my jap..havin jap test

today...

mugging in sch library wif my ger all the way til 8... am tireed...gonna study le...

cya guys=D

feel like eatin cookies frm famous amos=D~~

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

im nv earli for sch ..dressed up as a retro ger today lol.. wore a veri strikin colour

tee wif big n small circles...yellow n orange in colour! love it... bought it frm

bkk..WOoOo

so hows sch? stil the same.. crappin all the while.. n we reli messed up our psps

presentation.. tt teacher say we had a horrible presentation..i think so too..lol..

shitty presentation full of nonsense n rubbish shit! who cares la...

java test again.. fuck it..thou i got the applet but i think i stil fail it.. uber sad! wtf..

java is my jinx man!!!! boooooooooo

woke up today n saw 20 bucks by my bedside??santa claus?? nah.. my dad.. haha

win money again!!! lol... happy laaaaa.... got money no time spend oso jia lat ...=x

im sad sad sad...i regret tellin him tt .. now we aint like b4.. we seldom sms or

chat ..n he seldom or shld i say nv call me animore.. i knew tt we shld jus keep a

dist i noe his stil cant forget but wat else can i do but to keep mumb n act as if

nths happen... *sigh* i hope dis is jus a crush..i seriousli hope it is..so i can get

over quickli....

Monday, December 12, 2005

I AM VERI FULL NOW!!!*BurP* =x

so my day was greatn full of laughters wif accompany of JH N WL!! LOL...jin hao n

wei li our ARMy bOi!! haha.. dis 2 fella came tp to lunch wif us !! or shld i say..wei

li gotta come cos he wan borrow cd frm me!!! tt stupid cat! haha.. aniway when i

saw him the first thing me n ali noticed was his hairy leg lol... !! can let

mosquitoes play wo hu chang long dere..HAHAHAHAH=X... had our lunch at

mensa! haha..great time tokin cock n teasing our hao ge n hao sao.. wahaha...

after tt dis 2 sua gu wan go tk a look at our new itas canteen..so we went there..we

ended up standing dere n tok-.- lol.. n our hao ge send our hao sao to work!!!

OoOOo soOoOoOO dAMN SweEt RItE!!!! btw..hao ge----jin

hao... hao sao---huey wen..HAHAHAHAH... den i skipped my biofund lec n headed

to norgean vazz cafe to slack wif weili..isit like tt spell ar??? haha.. slack for near

2 hrs dere..we talked alot..n of cos kena suan by him,..its a routine liao..sureli

kena SUAN BY HIM!

studied in the library ALONE for 2 hrs..cos my dear jt went for dragon boat ...=( i

studied ckt.. finish studyin dis subj!! haha HAPpY!! jus gotta memorise the

formula den ho seh liao..=)

I WON 21 BUCKS FOR YTD NITE SOCCER!!! how CooL

man!!! hahahahah.... =D.....first time bet soccer n i won... 3 cheers for our debut

partnership ZI jIE!!! lol... ok..im nt gonna gamble too much of this stuff .its

unhealthy!!!!

wah im stil veri full now after my dinner...tummy gonna burst!!! *bURrRrRRrRrpPpPpp!* LOL

Sunday, December 11, 2005

I AM SO DAMN FUCKIN BORED!

i slept til 1 plus today..start studyin at 3plus.. cant concentrate but somehow i

managed to finish stuyin 1 topic of biochem on carbohydrate.. deres stil a few

parts of it i din fully understand... manage to read thru maths on chapter 8..smth

on graph...which i cant rmb wat was it now-.-

my parents were out now..goin for wedding dinner.. my bro n the gf were out..n im

left alone hm.. damn fuckin bored.. my frens went to work... huixin workin..huey

wen workin..eugan ps me..=( den stupid wei li ps me oso..sad...WO DE REN YUAN

BU HAO! lol. but tml weili comin tp to eat lunch wif me!!!!=D haha..happy!!!!nv c

tt idiot for so long liao..

pray hard tt tonite soccer wil win lol.. first time im tryin luck on soccer..LOL... din

reli into gamblin..but since zi jie jio-ed me..so jus play play la.. PRAY TT

LIVORNA WILL WIN!!!!ahhh...!!!!! lol... jus throw 20 bucks in.. but i

guess tt zijie

throw in about 20 times of my bet ba lol..

SHIT ON MY HEAD!!!! LOL-.-

cherry u got me thinkin by askin tt qn.. which is the most memorable rs...

seriously each rs i gone thru was a memorable one.. but the one tt haf the greatest

impact till now wil be simon.. dun ask me why.. thou me n him wasnt together for

very long..n our greatest mistake was tt we got togther too soon but stil those days

r the most memorable one.. den it will be alvin..cos his the first tt ever pampered

me so much n treat me so nicely...=) watever he did touches my heart.. every lil

thing he will tk note..i will nv forget tt time when we were at BK...his jus so caring

n cute!! there was once when we go out wif his fren..another couple la. we were

goin to chinatown for the chi new yr bazaar..so dey came n fetch me after

work..his fren was wearing a jacket tt zipped up all the way to his neck there.. was

wondering y dis guy wear til like tt when its so damn fuckin hot n sweat were all

drippin down frm his head.. so when we were goin hm..i ask alvin why he wear til

like tt.. he said he told him to wear dis cos he noe tt i dun like guy tt got so much

tattoo..n indeed i saw alittle of the tattoo ard his neck..haha.. totful yea?to u all

maybe nth ba..but im reli glad tt his so totful..mis him=)cant wait for 5 jan..im

gona c him soon=D

Saturday, December 10, 2005

work today.. WAS LIKE HELL... so mani ppl... no time for lunch n dinner.. today

supposed to close at 8..but we ended up closing at 8.40.. stil do settlement til 9

plus.. n i left earli ..about 9.30.. dey stil haven finish closing! cos the comp lagged..

print a z report tks such freakin long time..boo!! 124 new line.. 60 recontract.. so

mani!!! wah lan.. the que today was so long long long!!!! BUSY LIKE FARK!

work 11.5 hrs.. so its like 8.5 hrs---8.5 x 7= $ 59.50

4 x 10.5=$42(Overtime)

42+59.5=$101.50

haha...=D....

sad leh..tonight got zouk out..cant go..underage -.-i want be 18!!

who wanna acc me for dinner tml at tamp??? lookin for dinner kakis..lol.. gif u

guys a chance to date me... pls sms me before 3 pm by tml..!!!!!thanks.. hahaha

ive decided to remain neutral..=D hahah... I WAN TO BE A HAPPY SI CHAR BOR!!!

HAPPY LITTLE GER!! NTH CAN BEAT ME DOWN!!!!

no matter wat.. life stil gona caryy on... days stil gonna pass...FUCK CARE IS THE

WORD... say it wif me... HELL YEA!

Friday, December 09, 2005

was late for an hr dis mornin. dad send me to sch=) got a little emotional tt i

cried .. wasnt feelin great the whole mornin.. my mind wandered off to my

ex..alvin again.. his bro called me.. wanted me to viist him today.. 9-945am .. but

im havin lesson .. kind of feeling guilty.. its been about 3 mths since he went in...

his bro told me tt he wans me to write to him.. im thinkin of writing to him too..

kinda missed him thou.. flashback of those days of us being togther came back to

me..how sweet... my heart aches when i noe tt he lose lot of weight in there...=

( haiz...gonna visit him on 5 jan 2006... he will be released on 8 jan 2007...

my mood got better when sch ends... had been lookin forward to it.. me n my

darling jt are goin for lunch!!! haha.. pizza!!!!... 4 of us..bong..celia..jt n me.. were

at csq's shi lin havin our lunch..we order alot...XXL chicken..oyster mee

sua..cheese hotdog...pizza...bubble tea...old chang kee.... wahha...so full man!!!

headed off for shoppin!!! wEeEeeEe..=) bought xmas presents.... i bought Lavin

perfume for my aunt...=) bought studs for my tragus... bought lots of stationaries

at popular..haha...

im so addicted to echo now.. tt perfume for woman..so damn freakin nice.. i got

the sample haha.. jt was addicted to it too.. who wanna buy it as xmas pressie for

me????? haha... its was great to shop wif celia n bong.. ahah..fun!!! lookin forward

to next fri for lunch togther again!!!!... took neoprint today...!! wahah.. n got a pic

tt i look FUGLI!!!! wthhhh..dey kip luffin at me sia... kuku..

will be workin tml.. n i will stop workin til jan... =) haiz.. no more income..=(

got alot of stuff im lookin forward too..=) 23 dec..ms steamboat outing wif

classmates!!!!.... 24 xmas eve....!!! new yr eve ----malaysia(not confirmed)!!! yr

end shoppin!!!!.. =D

gonna shop for CNY clothes!! gonna shop for presentation formal wear!!! gona

SHOP shOP shOp...=D

OH GOSH!! AINT WE PRETTY???!!!! HAHA...JT...CELIA..ME...BONGG!!!

Thursday, December 08, 2005

so fast its thursday again.. the week is ending s0oon.. tcs lesson in the mornin..reli

dislike the teacher..fuck up bytch..kns.. dr ravi was not wif us today so we've got

mr goh as our tutor for biofund tut! i jus love him!! his so god damn cute.. n his

ang moh kan slang can... wah lao..slang uuntil i tot i hear him sing song sia..

haha..

ive got a 2 hr break in btw cos biofund lec was cancelled.. met my ger at reservoir

for sum puffing...kenneth was dere too.. haha.. after tt ive got java.. the lab lesson

tt vulgarities nv fail to fly ard.. haha..

im missin him the whole day..veri much wanted to sms him but im afraid to

disturb him. was happy when he msged me in the evenin.. n i reli loves to listen

him sing andy lau's song! haha..=)

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

I WAN TO BANG THE WALL N GO

DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ive got my biochem test today..was revising til 2am..n i cant finish it.. the test we

like hell .. but wif 2 experts sitting beside me.. i become expert oso!! BUT..its

expert in copying..lol... but the expert oso got copy my oso hor..siao siao..lol..

im so cold in the mornin..n i forgot to bring my jacket..my nose was like running

lik ehell..wif all those mucous keep flowing down...EEk!!!!god damn

disgusting..used up 3 pac of tissue..my nose hurts like hell... wore henry's

jacket..so huge man!! lol..when i wore it..im like wearing nth..cos it covers up my

whole body..lol..

jap presentation was scary..but stil i manage to finish presenting it.. =) phew..wat

a relief... so now im left wif jap language test..n culture online quiz..den ive got

java lab quiz again..n ckt lab quiz..follow by term test.. yeah.. GAMbattE nE...=)

i duno y am i feelin dis way... but ive been waiting for the sms the whole day .. was

it a sign tt he had some place in my heart.. dis i seriousli duno.. but jus by seeing

his msg it could actually make me smile...n when i heard those songs tt simon

used to sing to me..i dun feel anithing at all.. i dun miss him animore.. tts smth to

rejoice about.. but im not sure of the feelin for another him.. cos we jus know each

other for not veri long thou.. can some1 jus teach me how........

ok tts me in orange n the one beside is of cos my dear ger..=) our reflection! haha at bugus mrt...
kup it frm her bloggie=x

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

normal sch day... java was kinda alrite actuali. jus tt jt got stuck inthere lol. make

me luff til peng.. haha!!! so now i noe tt guys frm my class r actually a gd bunch of

joker too.. haha.. was discussing wif bong to organise class outing.. maybe we can

get chalet or organise steamboat outing at marina south yea.. tts not a bad idea

man..=)

so yah term test is comin real soon... 19 to 23 dec... 4 paper.. biochem

biofund..em2..edeckt.. oh gosh....=( jus gotta study hard... i haven finish studyin

for my biochem test tml..n my jap project r stil uncomplete.. i stil haven write n

memorise my scripts for tml presentation...gotta burn midnite oil..since i sleep

frm 6 til 8 plus*rECHargE*.. =)

next week will be lab test etc etc... guess there aint much time left for

enjoyment..well..wat to do..gotta chiong all the way.. n relac in the 1 week hols...

where clubbing..shopping...slacking... will all be in tt one week..which include

xmas n new yr day!!!=D

i think im falling for tt someone..cos i all i think of him is now....

Monday, December 05, 2005

lab lesson starts at 8..but im stil in bed when its 8..my eyes jus cant open..so i

continued wif my beauty sleep n reach sch at 11.. yAWnXxxX....

i jus noe tt tml is my maths test..i din noe its on which day n fuck it..its tml..=(..

was studyin biochem during my 2hr break b4 jap cds..was studyin for bout an hr.n

i started readin magazine..haiz.. stupid mag...lol.. jap lec. was like..sian..din even

paid attention was chattin wif wen qin=) yeah nice ger..though we r in the same

course but we seldom tok cos we aint tt close. but afterall shes a nice n sweet

ger=).. damn hungry n im growling wif hunger during jap lec..n so suay today wat

they taught was japanese diet.. wif pics of all those ramen n sushi..it onli makes

me more hungry... wtf la...-.-"

haha headed hm for dinner immediately... gotta practise my maths later in the

nite.. n oso to memorise my jap stuff.. yawn.. biochem is killing me slowli... o

yea..23 dec is our outing!!! wif bong..celia..jt..henry..weiyi.. n another ger i forgot

her name=x!! gona get more ppl.. we goin to buy xmas present for each other n oso

to hav a feast!!!! wahaha.. celebration for xmas n oso ending of term test!! o yeah

babeh..cant wait man..=D

Sunday, December 04, 2005

its a sunday! am off to work.. theres dis guy wearing imode shirt ..we took the

same bus..same train togther..n we keep starin at each other LOL..cos we were

wearing the same uniform.. haha! but think his workin for the public rdshow.. cos

our uniform are alightly diff.. but i reli like this imode tshirt compared to the

previous starhub shirt... thinks its nicer man=D...

work was slackin in the mornin.. but after lunch time ppl starts to flock in.. busy

busy busy.. epos machine was down again..n we were writing maunal invoices for

the whole day.. hand can break u noe... n theres dis customer who was damn

irritatting.. !! arghh.. but still today was kinda alrite=)

cant wait for next sunday man!!!! will be workin..n after work starhubbers will be

goin for ma la huo guo at bugis!!!! haha..cant wait man...=D~... yea yea..lol.. next

week wil be the last week workin togther.. after tt corp rdshow at ihub will stop for

2 weeks.. den start again in jan... think its alrite ba since term test comin there

will be no time for work too...

its the first time i really have dis kinda feelings toward someone after simon.. i

guess its gettin stronger.....tell me how...

yESterDAY~

my ah ma's bdae...=) went over to my ah ma's hse for celebration..dere's buffet..n

crab!! steam crab!! my fav..n its super fresh =D~... crappin n lamin wif my

cousins..its been quite sometime since we last met..yeah.. great time sitting on the

massage chair oso..im vibratin my whole body lol...the bdae cake was damn

freakin YUMMY!!!!!!

me n my ah ma!!!! my ah ma kiss me ytd!!! lol... i oso kiss her back!!!=D

TodAY~

so yeah.. went for tt boring ne talk today.. was slackin thru out..went out to puff n

when we came back..hei hei.. the talk ends n off we go for our brunch at food

park.=)

met my ger at pavillion for some pool session.. den headed to bugis for

shoppin..got a top ..bohemian necklace n pendant for myself..i love the pendant!!

so nice.. diamond studded heart shape wif wings!!!=D.. we bought a naval stud for

ah belle=) nice nice de...

after tt went over to ah belle's chalet at coasta sand...=D... ebasians were all

dere....ah jo ..ah neh..xiao min..huifang..chamebelle..clara..lindy..etc..baleno

daniel oso came..=) gossipin.. foto session... was quite enjoyable though stil got

quite a handful din turned up..buffet again... haha.. met my parents at 11 goin to

loyang temple..=) den supper at pasir ris.. shitx... 2 nights of buffet.. n supper... i

can feel the fats...BOO..

HApPy 21 bIrtHDaY BeLLe!!!!!=)

taken ytd..was waitting for my mum to be ready..took so long man..n i starts to zi lian again=x...

sunglasses i bought at bangkok..=)

me n jing ting!!!=) in sch....

im so happy...!! my aunt wil be buying me MAC limited edition make up brush

set..=D as a xmas present...!!!! im so happy man...=)

Friday, December 02, 2005

so its friday again..as usual i din reach sch on times..n i dun giff a damn..was

feeling sleepy n i reali dragged myself to sch.. DRAGGED... sch was kinda

alrite..wif no irritating teachers.. no irritatin ppl..=) thakns god.. haha

headed to tamp after sch wif jt..went ard slackin..n we end up sitting down at shi

lin dere munchin on some snacks ... its was so great to tok to her though we tok

almost everyday..HAHA... i totally agree wif wat she say=D

we would always learn smth frm every relationship.. frm all the past relationships

ive learnt not to believe in ppl so easily.. dun be so naive n believe watever

shit they say.. nv go to guy's hse alone.. n i mean NEVER! ive learnt my lesson...

communication btw u n ur guy r veri veri impt... i used to keep all my feelings

inside me instead of tellin them... i used to hide my ''bu shuang'' n act as nth

happen when we r togther.. n its VERY WRONG!

ive always envy those couples tt r togther for very long..seeing them holdin hands

n walkin on the streets togther would always make mi goes green wif envy..

whenever i go shoppin wif my girls..n i come across those nice top for guys i would

always think of gettin it for my bf if i had 1...=( i love givin little surprises to my

guy.. me n jt even tot of so mani ideas to gif surprise.. haha..! haiz... but yea its all

stil so earli to say.. cos im single rite now... booo

haha..actuali single wasnt tt bad afterall.. u dun haf to think of the feelins of ur

guy in watever u do ba... more time for ur frens n family... but still i hate to

see couple on the mrt... lol.. hug til so tight for wat!!! wan hug go hm

hug la! LOL...

Thursday, December 01, 2005

was tryin to sit down n study at hm.. its was alrite at first.. but slowli i loss

concentration n my tots wander off... -.-

I JUS CANT CONCENTRATE!!!!

guess i shld start to camp in sch library till 9 pm again...

fuckin failed my java lab test! 6 out of 20 marks!! its like wtf!.. k..

watever..its like expected..watever it is.. henry n tt si char bor pass.. but y i fail!! n

den fal stil nvm..i fail til jia lat jia lat.. 6 leh!!! 6 u noe...!!!=( kan siannn

was in lecture hall jus now..got 1 freaking cockroach running in front of mi!!! i

screamed so damn loud tt everione in the LT look at me..-_-" paiseh...

haiz...casper bike buang again.. not i wan to say him ar..dis is the duno how mani

time liao.. reli duno how to say him.. thanks god tt hes alrite..n suffer some minor

injury onli..was kinda worry for him though.. heya be careful when

riding k...!!

o yea.. tml will be my ah ma bdae...!!! gonna go my ah ma hse for celebration=D

got buffet=D~ wahahaha... n oso c all my cousins..=D its been quite sumtime since

we last met.. kinda miss my cousins... ah hen...kelvin..joanna..denise..ah heng

kor..alvin kor..=D..wahah.. im gonna go pi piak jap wif ah heng kor oso..lol.. he

took jap as cds when his in tp last yr..=)

ok.. im gonna go study now... im hardworkin k... lol.. biochem n mths test next

week... =(

GAMBATTE NE!!!! ... ja ma ta... =)

*caught in the middle la.. jia lat..dis time reli ki chia liao la....booo